Another day, today, no mood to study,...lol, since yesterday. No weird at all. After a few chats and talks, I become fine again, manage to study 1 lecture. But dunno if I have enough time to study or not. I saw my upcoming lecture notes, wow, in mathermatics. How am I gg to learn that?

It felt weird, after chatting I have more confident to study. Is it true....? Then wat? Keep on thinking of girls....what the hell..... why am I like this, wat have I become...

Today, before lecture, I receive an sms from her... Her, lol, wat's with the sudden sms. And the sms writes weird stuff... wat I got smile or not ?? Make my mind think of her sms onli. She nvr cross my mind till now.... I think. I am getting weirder and weirder each day.., think some of my friend will be scare of me soon..

Another Day

My emotion is getting worse once again. Sometimes I can control it most of the time I just cant help it. Now I am studying in school. Just a few days ago, many things I do not understand, trying hard to learn. I am still concern with the pillar I am looking for... Without a pillar, I still find it hard to survive...
Last month, I met a few ingame friends, though my first time meeting them, I have the courage to meet them, I wanna meet more friends. Trying something new...
I hate to see/do something over and over again everyday. I want to do something new everyday. That is 1 big problem. I wonder how am I going to find a jib if I have that problem? Not to say have a gf or a wife.
Everyday, I been thinking of girls, but in school, I dare not look at any girls. It is my mind that is doing this to me. The malay girl that I like have a bf, just saw her friendster ytd. When I looked at it, I wanna wish them both all my blessing... :D Nothings beat making your love ones happy, correct? I ask myself, what do I look for? A substitute? A play-play relationship? A real one? Hahaha. Nah. Perhaps is only the brain think too much. Heart is totally different thinking. Many of my friends study different course from me, but I am happy to see them in school. Now trying to get to make new friends in school.

Day 29/06/2007

Going to a gathering with my poly friends for dinner. This is the second time they ask me out, cause the first time I last minute not going. I wanna change for the better. Tying to get along with them...

Today is a really enjoyable day. Me and my two secondary friends went to play badminton and pool together. Long time since I went to jurong east complex; and meet up with them. Play for a while only and I get tired. Weeks haven't been exercising so... After 2 hours, at first, we thought of going to the creative sales at their own building, but then again... tml maybe a better time, last day always get more bargain. We walk to jurong east entertainment for a dinner then went to play pool. During the game, there was a lot of laughter.

Everytime, together with them, give me a percious memory. Though we don't have a lot of similiarise, our personnalitise are totally different, but among all my friends, I am able to laugh louder with them.

I am still trying to ask my poly friends to hang out.

2 more weeks... and what...? Scool or work? I haven't got an answer, still very indecisive. But still, there is nth for me to worry about... haha.

Long time post 1, so have to write sth more. Hehe. Though this blog only I can see it, don't care how many ppl see this blog, even me only. I just feel like writing. Bye bye.

Another blog.... Finally, after 2 years. I can do what I want to do now.... Same with the rest of my friends who are with me .... 2 years of army... Learn quite a lot.

Free At Last

Finally, been 2 years.... and I am free now. Hope all my friends who have been together with me have a gd life from now onwards.

Happen Again

Thrusday, 8th March 2007, went with some friends to watch movie '300'. Never expect to see her. Took a glimpse to comfirm that it is really her. She saw me too when I was talking to my friend... Then I turn my face around. She was with a guy. Haha. But I don't care who is with her. I already decided long ago.
But still, miss her... seems we can't even be friends.

Been having changes everyday, often, sometimes? Well, I have been weird recently. Troubles are all gone. But now all I could say and speak about, are girls. Seem to find one for myself. But girls of your dream and the real girl that you have will be different. Not married, never fell in love with anyone before, so don't ask me if it is true.

My favourite idol is Ayumi Hamasaki - long hair, big eyes, slim .... haha.

*NOTE: The girl you like may or maynot like you. When you choose people, they will also have a choice to choose you or not.

The world I am looking at now is still very small. I have seen nothing yet. 20+ still can't quite think properly about my future. I wonder now, each and everyday. What I should do for my future? What job can I do? Everyday live a care free life. Seems so happy. Just wait till day pass by. But I don't like it..., couldn't do anything about it. Times seems to fly faster and faster...

Everyday in a humans' life, there is always some questions in mind and some conclusions.
So I decide to conclude things that what I think about on everyday.

Living in reality and living in a virtual world.... which one would you choose?
For me, I like to play online games. Mostly I play everyday 24 7. Like to make friends inside the game. Some are friendly while some are not. In my real life, I don't have a lot of friends that I can chat with. At times, I think about my games more than my friends when I am going out with them. Perhaps use to it, or else competition... In both of the world, just a nothing, just a normal being. Who knows if in the future, you will get to live in your dreams or a virtual land.

Sorrow

This week. I cant control my emotion any more. It is getting worse and worse. Try to avoid hurting anyone. How long can I control it? I don't know who to approach now. Other friends got their problems...

Happening Today

Today went out with my parents to Bugis. Meeting KC at Heeren to buy something for Wei Guang for his birthday(2 weeks ago). No time to buy. Bought a bracelet for him from 77th street. After buying the present, met up with Alan and went to Bugis to meet up with Wei Guang. Walking to and fro, a bit tiring. Been a while seens we went out like this. Nothing much, just window shopping. I kept coughing.

Troubles

I have difficulties in controling my own emotion now. One by one, a lot of my friends have left me. Is it really beccause of this?

Bad Mood

It has been a long time seens I blog an entry.
Today, I felt really unhappy about somethings like I always did. 1st is because of a few people and about my life. Humans are very difficult to understand...

This morning, Aden is very unhappy about Alan because of the things Alan said cause what he did and what he said is different. When Adens' friend, Jayne is being scolded, I heard Aden giggling. I just don't know what is he thinking about?
Now is like spoon feeding the rest of them. Don't want to think so much about them le. Just let them be ba.

Aden, always dont understand why he is so angry about? Alan, dont know what to say to him... Jeremy, dont seem to care about anything nowadays... We are all waiting for our ORD date.

After RO, went to JP with KC and JY to eat lunch. Also, need to find a present for a friends' birthday. KC looked kind of unhappy before he book out, but I don't know why. He always keep things to himself.