Yeah... Finally brought ayumi single... today after work keep ;ooking for sth to buy to somebody

2day work again, after that came home with a fever.. walking in the rain lor. lying on the bed, cant hardly get up.


Now fever is gone..

If we meet again, i'm gonna get watever u wan.....


Today met wif so many friends from NP... Like giving mi parting gifts.

Well, today is the star of my day off.... 3 days... but, wat to do now? So confuse and worse, really sad. 2day rent 4 vcd home, but didnt feel anything today....
NO FEELING, NO MOOD, Y Y Y Y Y Y Y Y....?

Wat am I doing?
How do I spend my day when I am off?
What am I waiting for?
Funny thing is i dun even have anyone to share things wif....

Play, eat, slp became so difficult.......

Today wanna blog sth... I wont be seeing u for ur Monday interview. So. U should be able to pass the interview. Since that few days we came across one another, sth bad have happen 2 both of us... not bad thingy.

Dunno wat to blog, dunno is happy or sad now...

Wat 2 write... I got my result... I pass my fyp. And I met nut again yesterday. Didnt say much, even I wanna talk to her.

Today, my off day. But still going to meet rm and tp. Met nut twice... Met up wif anizah, rm, hazel and tp to buy din birthday present.

dunno y every time i wish to see nut, but then i c le, i hav nth to say, and didnt even dare to stand beside her, is kiwi still scare to be beside a gal.? haha.. oh well, know that u r fine can le, i dun wish for anything. just really happy to c all my friends.

Somethings just isnt shown by ur outside.

Wanna write sth in this blog, but... receive mindef letter and 2 months later going to army le......

A song lyrics grab from a chinese song

Translation :
let go of ur love, let go of ur hand, if ur heart is not here.
let go of ur love, dun wanna wait, ur gentleness become blank.
let go of ur love, open ur heart, this time i decided to walk out of the past and start from the beginning.

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Sitting right here, so early in the morning, i work 6 days per wk... one day of boring stay home day... play game,.. dunno wat to play, no mood to play... Wish to go out wif anyone who is willing to go out walk walk.. I been trying hard in my work, some say i stupid, some know that i always count wrong $$. But i try hard not to think i am useless..but sometimes i guess so ... useless... But one of the senior staff any how scold staff... everyone also scold.... She say all malaysian r like mi, so stupid. i didnt put that in mind as i know most overseas ppl will work beter outside of their country not to let ppl to look down on them. i wont be klled so easily, nor i am a quitter. all that childish thoughts, all the naive behaviour and thinking, all must throw away. Came so far tis way, i have lots to learn. i have change so much... like another guy... is amazing sth can change mi tis much... NP yr 1 is a guy who is stress all the time, scold ppl(my best friend, mom, family), hot-tempered, like to be alone...
Now, like to be with ppl, smile all day, smile for nth or anything, making friends, learn new stuff, make lots of mistakes, bare the anger and scolding from the managers, didnt scold any of my friend.

tis person now left wif sth that has not been changed, and it should been done a long time ago. that is quit shouting at my mom or family. tis i gonna try all my best to become the complete person from 2yrs ago, my old self.
i hope some of the ppl will understand that when friends give u advice, they dun wan to control wat u do or wat u think, they wan u to know they care for u and some advice if tis and that u did wat can happen... it is a reminder... perhaps listening to them is ok rather than assuming that they wanna control ur thoughts and scolding back at them. the mistakes i made, i dun wanna repeat, neither i wan my friends to do wat i did.

i know i am not decisive, i always ask friends for advice.. the rest is up to mi if i wanna do or not.

it is glad to know some of my friends have part-time job. Whether got job or not, as long as u r happy, then ok le. if u r not, go find sth that will make u happy.

nut: dunno u read tis or not, teach ur tution, dun stress urself, dun blame urself, try ur best. everything has the first time. smile, laugh, and a day will pass.... U will always be my sis.

Haiz... wat to write... my sis still mad at mi, perhaps i know that time i msg her sth...

Time to blog, tis few wks... Wat am I doing, wat have I been doing... Work work work, almost everyday, wahaha.... Lets c, concentrating on my work, well, sort of.. but down a lot of $$. Sad. Got ppl to laugh wif, chat wif... A gd life. Got many movie preview to c... Can remember the sad, romantic, and scary ones.. Today working nite time, haiz... till morning... slpy. Everyday sms my sis abt happening, zzZzz

Today, done sth wrong, down money again. So sad, even worse, i upset my sis....

Sian stay at home for wat?

Hi Blog, Yesterday went work at 3. Dunno wat to write here. So many ppl didnt go work, we all r so bz doing. Well, c if today is the same ma?

Yesterday, some of the 16+ gals said they r tired. I met some old full-timer that I nvr met before. Monday is an off day, I hope I can go out wif anyone who wanna go out walk walk.